Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.
Counting back to the first of the last three
years,
After thirteen years of teaching geography
in the high school,
I felt so uneasy and psycho-emotionally
tired,
Haven taught same set of classes and
same set of structured topics for so long
numbers of years.
As interesting as teaching profession is,
The mental fatigue that oppressed my
mind displaced my never dieing interest,
I was lost within myself, the only way out
was to take a break,
I really felt out of school system.
As I sat to reflect on the cause of my
sudden displeasure in what I like most,
Then I discovered it was my emotional
attachment to each year graduating
students,
For their respective three years in senior
secondary school,
I built a very strong and deep
teacher-students relationship with them,
With measureless love I took them all as
my blood,
Seeing them passing out of college after
their three years of studies makes my heart
heavy,
Not because I don’t want their progress,
But because I am going to be missing them
all the day long.
This experience became yearly routine,
As final year college students are passing
out, I felt part of my body has been cut off,
That fateful year, I could not curtailed it
any longer,
I felt like also leaving the school system,
I felt like going with the graduating
students,
I love those students to the extent that, my
job meant nothing to me.
It was a serious issue of emotional crisis
between my body and my spirit.
I practically felt out of school system,
Which eventually led to my resignation
that same year.
Many at times, what we cherish doing
becomes so irritating to us,
Not because we outrightly lost interest in
doing those things, but because our
emotion has been unconsciously wired
around them,
A time will come when our emotion will
like to dictate our pace and patterns of
doing what we love, if the dictate of our
emotion
runs parallel to principle guiding those
things, our interest and enthusiasm will be
nailed, we then begin to feel
uncomfortable,
then the next action is to want to be out.
Though we are always attached to our
emotional dictate as human,
Self discipline will help us to silence
emotion when duty calls for action.