FEELING OUT OF PLACE

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Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.

Counting back to the first of the last three

years,

After thirteen years of teaching geography

in the high school,

I felt so uneasy and psycho-emotionally

tired,

Haven taught same set of classes and

same set of structured topics for so long

numbers of years.

As interesting as teaching profession is,

The mental fatigue that oppressed my

mind displaced my never dieing interest,

I was lost within myself, the only way out

was to take a break,

I really felt out of school system.

As I sat to reflect on the cause of my

sudden displeasure in what I like most,

Then I discovered it was my emotional

attachment to each year graduating

students,

For their respective three years in senior

secondary school,

I built a very strong and deep

teacher-students relationship with them,

With measureless love I took them all as

my blood,

Seeing them passing out of college after

their three years of studies makes my heart

heavy,

Not because I don’t want their progress,

But because I am going to be missing them

all the day long.

This experience became yearly routine,

As final year college students are passing

out, I felt part of my body has been cut off,

That fateful year, I could not curtailed it

any longer,

I felt like also leaving the school system,

I felt like going with the graduating

students,

I love those students to the extent that, my

job meant nothing to me.

It was a serious issue of emotional crisis

between my body and my spirit.

I practically felt out of school system,

Which eventually led to my resignation

that same year.

Many at times, what we cherish doing

becomes so irritating to us,

Not because we outrightly lost interest in

doing those things, but because our

emotion has been unconsciously wired

around them,

A time will come when our emotion will

like to dictate our pace and patterns of

doing what we love, if the dictate of our

emotion

runs parallel to principle guiding those

things, our interest and enthusiasm will be

nailed, we then begin to feel

uncomfortable,

then the next action is to want to be out.

Though we are always attached to our

emotional dictate as human,

Self discipline will help us to silence

emotion when duty calls for action.

38 thoughts on “FEELING OUT OF PLACE”

  1. Your words paint a canvas not just of a career, but of a soul navigating the intricate dance of love and duty. It’s a reminder that amidst the structured routine of life, our emotions carve their own intricate patterns. Your resilience, the act of silencing the clamor of emotions when duty calls, stands testament to the indomitable spirit of a teacher.

    May your journey post-resignation be a melody of self-discovery, where the echoes of your past resonate with newfound rhythms. Here’s to the next chapter, where the heart finds its equilibrium, and the spirit, unburdened, dances to the music of a new dawn.

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  2. The internal struggle you faced between your emotional attachment and professional duty is relatable and shows the complexity of human emotions. Your decision to resign highlights the importance of self-awareness and the ability to make difficult choices when necessary. Thank you for sharing this personal and insightful story.🤝🏆

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      1. Every year my daughters finish their year in their school, I used to feel bad to leave the teachers who taught them for that year. They would be very cool though. That’s why I could understand what you shared!

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  7. I had a similar journey. After teaching for 17 years, I felt burned-out and overwhelmed. My spirit was too heavy to carry on. I resigned too. Now, I feel like I am on a better path to self-care and discovery. I pray that you will find the right path for your life. Thank you for sharing your story.

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    2. You shouldn’t feel like that, we all are unique in our ways. Always think positive and Pray you will feel relaxed and then meditate on all the things you have in life those are blessings!

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      2. You’re welcome remember we were not born, with a manual letting us know what to do we learn as we grow, just like a baby falls when it’s learning to walk the baby will fall many times before it’s experienced and strong enough to walk on its own. God bless and please think positive!

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